Tuesday, August 12, 2008
My Good Place.
Yesterday afternoon, I discovered something. Something that I might have known for a few weeks. Bt only yesterday, I was aware of it.
I saw something online relating to an ex-him that could have jolly well killed me, if I was the old me. Bt yesterday, yesterday was different. I didn't feel a thing. Not like numbness coz you are too hurt. Bt I just didn't feel a thing. Ok, maybe a slight itty bitty tiny weeny thing. Bt the emotions I felt was surprise - at my own reactions! I can't believe I didn't feel like dying. I just shrugged it off as though it meant nothing to me. And then I realise it, it doesn't mean much to me anymore. I'm over it. Well over it! Tadaaaaaaaaaaaa!!!!
And to make it all better, I receive a positive sms early in the morning today! From that one man I've been waiting to hear from! He brings us gooooood news! Well, er... not really confirm gd news, bt... kinda gd news as that's better than no news right?!
That's when I said to myself, that no wonder I don't feel much about yesterday, as I realise that even though he is not with me, I am at a good place. A better place than ever I could have been. Because my road is now clear, I know where I want to go and I am looking forward to it.
I am at a good place. Alhamdulillah...
Posted by DiStUrBeD AnGeL at 2:05 PM